wondering .... between ....
Food was great.



Every weekend was well-spent.

Sept is coming.
It should be a mth of celebrating.

I hope Sept will pass quickly.

Labels: Batam - 29.9.09

had an enjoyable day today at BATAM.
Seriously, the whole day i trying to get my mind off you.

Freaks,
Move on. I want to.

Tomolo morning study.
Dunno can wake up a not.

I'm blessed.
Thank you my friends.

IN one way or another.
I'm thankful for ppl around me.
I'm a terrible person.

I'm regretful
Learn from it.
A lesson that i must learn.
Cos in return, i lost something precious to me.

Pictures uploaded tomolo,
I dyed my hair.
hahaha.

Busy busy busy.
nitez

Lunch with colleagues.
Hahaha.
I named it Post-National Day Celebration.
I have 25% off on KFC.

haha.

I have no choice but to move on.
Move it.
I want to become back the CHIN YUE MING.
Stay strong.

Dun care.
Tomolo cheong to Batam.
I'll go by myself.
This is me,
Sorry for the non-sense created by me.

Thank you.
My Friends.

whahahahaha.
Sian.
Hsve to do my work before i sleep tonitez.

How come i'm still so busy.
Better let mi be busy.
I'm planning for something.

hahaha.
off to Fw-ing

Things fussed up cos of mi.
I really dunno what's gotten into me...
BATAM trip maybe cancelled.

Hope cathy won't be angry.
Anyway, here's an interesting title of books that ah fang and mi have been reading
Interesting Huh?
currently reading the "How to break your own heart."
still in the midst of it, hope i'll be able to finish it on the time before it gets overdue.

Have been buying things online.
Now i have becoming more doting to myself.
splurging on items that i want to.
heez.
Here's an parcel that i receive today.
The buyer still gave us Fantastic 4 stickers and some other kids stuff.
Hahaha.
damn funny.

Everything has come to an end.
Jia You. CHIN YUE MING

Batam this weekend.
2 days 1 nite.


you said that you would come and look for me.
but ....
I'm still waiting for your number to appear in my hand phone.

Tired.
u are so damn right.

As u like.
I have decided.

What should i do?
What can i do?
I'm feeling vexed.


Today is Wed liaoz.
I'm not happy at all.

Everyday, i looked at the small window of my office building which oversees the little staircase that once a upon u stood by.
I wish, you would stand there still feeling concerned and your hand holding my fav bubble tea.

but i know this day will nv come again.

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Going for lunch to drink $1 bubble tea.
hahaha.

stress.

i will not take those memories away.
those memories were so beautiful.
Just return my heart to me.
Stop bringing it along with you.

shagged.

Today i walked from Lavender to Chinatown.
I got a lot of spare time left after doing my passport.
so i just walked.

While walking, a lot of images flashed inside my head.
I know i gotta be strong.

I am a selfish person.
Really selfish.

Gotta sleep early.
today wake up damn early.
tomolo still have to walk up early too.
for my lessons.

Labels: 22 july 08.

within 2 mths, went fortune telling for 4 times.
4 different places i went to with my mum.


life has nv been easy for me.
for now, i just wanna wake up everyday feeling happy.
that's all i ask.

Things will nv be the same anymore.
That's one thing for sure.

Going to make my passport tomolo morning.
early morning must go queue liao.
Then Fw, then to class.

Hoo hoo. hopefully i can still remember what i have studied.
Every sunday morning have to attend class.
Sibei sian.

La La land.

I'm waiting for 24th July.
I wonder what will happens.

busy.
exams.
Excuses.

i have to start studying every Sunday morning.
Starting from this wk.

so rush.
Bless me.

wanna go short trip but passport expires.

Am TIRED.

very TIRED.

When i wake up, i dun feel refreshed.
why is this so.

Gotta sleep early.
I hope it cures.

Woo Hoo
Just got home.

Today Jack's mood super happy lah.
Time just pass so fast.

Now then i realised my phone can do so many things to the pictures in my phone.
Thanks to Kimbo who taught mi the functions of my phone and also to accompany mi from 11-5.
wanna upload the Pic of Jack sleeping. Crop it and dada. . .
I didn't knoe i could crop it and enLARGE it.
haha.


Alright some silly pictures.






Going to bath, drink my herbal soup, paint my nail polish, do face mask before i go Lala land.

Everyday is a happy day!

I'm utterly devastated.

I'm burned.
It was fun.


We cycle/skate for very long to go and find Hipo Fang.
But we are at C, she is at F.
Damn far.
After that she shift to D.
Then i cannot taban skate back so have to tag behind Guang.
but kanna bruise all over.
haha.
then along way also slip and fall.
Didn't think it was so painful until i bathed.

Feeling heaty now.
really like to fall sick badly cos Tuesday planning to MC.
if now really fall sick, then Tuesday dun need to spin a tale liaoz.
haha.

FW-ing tomolo. Hopfully Jack tomolo gd mood lah. But i think his r/s got problem.
Surely face black black.
Sianz.

Saw this Hello Kitty at MAC.
went to buy it.
is cute.
haha.

Labels: ECP after so long i went and skate

Friday.
Am wrestling during lunch break.

Tea Break
Snacks from Penang.

Labels: ECP - i'm coming

During Lunch time whenever we ate rice.
Lu and Fang will give mi their rice.



and i will eat finish.
But lucky mi dinner with Cathy not so heavy or else really Big Sized Elephant.
My appetite has become smaller and guang commented that cos now also nobody to eat with.
but still will still go for weekly run.

Haha.
ECP this sat
FW-ing this sun

Next weekend?
hmmm.
i guess i have been spending a lot of time on FW.
Thanks Chew. Maybe can see Jamie at last.
Hope you are working next sat.

Next Sun-Mountain climbing?
dumpling making
and shopping.

and monday 17 Aug, will be going out with ERA ppl to watch a 'dirty' movie.
and Tuesday will stay at home to moan lah. Results Day.
Freaks.
Lastly, a pic of me.
When one door of happiness closes, another opens,
but often we look so long at the closed door that
we do not see the one which has been opened for us.
i can no longer smile. w/o u by my side.

Stay up past midnight, grab a blanket and go stargazing tonight: The year’s most spectacular meteor shower is expected to peak Wednesday morning around 1 a.m. (your local time), and then again just before dawn.

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Labels: Yr 09 National Day Fireworks

When things turn out like this. It was all unexpected.

First text msg: 23 Aug 06. When it was all still sweet.

Sigh.

I cried again. Have been like this for the past few days.

Whatever I say now is not gaining sympathy or whatsoever. Just my thoughts and all.

Been together for nearly 3 years, it was happy and you know it.

Our first meet-up: 9 Sept 06. It was Jamie’s and Vincent’s b’day celebration at the FW.

Our first date: 22 Sept 06. Suntec City. Watched a movie. And stroll by the marina sea.

I was having a major crisis at that time. You stood by mi. You did not despise me. You gave me the strength and encourage mi to spur even more. Without you at that time, I think I would have nv thought love was so beautiful. I still remember we stood by the park near by house. How I cried so terribly, and how you hugged me in your arms saying how much you want me.

Our first Trip: Genting on 20-22/10/06. Something very funny happen. I think it will happen to me only. So gong so suay. But that thing surely left a deep impression in yr mind. I bought a ¾ pants and now it is still hanging in my wardrobe.

I remember one week the maximum no of meets up was 5 in a straight row. At that point of time, what I was concerned was the midnight charge that u needs to handle. I think that period of yr time was the time when u were the poorest.

First Christmas: 25 Dec 06

I know you liked 24 Dec. I noted it down mentally. Telling myself this day is impt to you and nv to miss it.

First Valentine: 14 Feb 07. We spent it at FW. You gave me a necklace. And I gave you a Braun buffel wallet. Surprised by the flowers.

We slowly natured this relationship and bring it to a higher level.

Until one day, you told mi you need to go to Thailand for a yr. We discussed it and I told u I will wait for u.

01.05.2007 – 01.05.2008

U left on my b’day, and you came back and surprised mi on my b’day.

Although these 2 days wasn’t really well-spent. I grumbled and stood by it.

Days at the Thailand. – went to find you 2 times.

First time I cried uncontrollably.

The phone calls.

The webcam.

The waiting.

The Shopping trips.

The Chinatown curse.

The Shark fins.

We actually watch Transformer when we were in Thailand on the day before yr b’day.

The wait was finally over.

We thought we knew we were meant to be.

All these are memorable. I smile to myself when I thought of it cos those days were the times when we're very happy. Remembering when you text me sweet or funny texts I would like smile to my phone which people may think I'm crazy though is silly but it was real sweet.

We've been through so much.

The days when you were in Thailand freaks me out cos I don't get to see you. Always waiting for you in every nite for your phone call is tiring yet none of us gave up.

Some things happen at home,it was a tough time but we went through it together. How much effort I put in, is all true.

I don't fake it.

The place we go, the food we eat, the things we do, the things we say somehow still lingers in my mind.

I know I was selfish

U too cos u wanted me all by yourself.

It was suffocating.

I wanna run but I had no courage.

Now I did it but I’m not sure whether I have the courage to walk this route by myself.

Goodbye my love.

Labels: I'm all alone now.

没有人爱我。

Tell mi what should i do now?

silly me.
simply lost.

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Thursday Bedok reservoir.
Sure a not?

haha.

fireworks
on
9 Aug 09

Labels: Happy everyday must be happy

01.05.2007 - 01.05.2008
Spend dunno how many $$$ on phone calls and air tickets.
waited for 365 days.

in the end.
both parties did nothing to salvage the relationship.

our love is only this strong.
feelings getting stronger and stronger.

but i really dun knoe what to do now.
i only know there's no return back?

Will you forgive me.
&
Will i be able to forget you.

I really dun know.
I just knoe the future is only Me to walk alone and to walk bravely.

Labels: 2.8.2009 - longest period not to talk

My mum says I no longer use my heart to do things liaoz
ask me ：“我的心跑去哪了？”
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haha.
Today is going to be a great day with the Bitches.
Hope it don't rains.

难过。心痛。日子照样过。
开心。快乐。日子还是一样要照样过。